Imperfect Perfection.

I was feeling very sad tonight. Things haven't been great recently.
Whenever I've felt really down, I've always thought "I'm very lucky. I have great friends, a great family, I do well in school and I have a big future ahead of me." Recently, I lost all my friends so the few I have right now, I'm not particularly close to. My family and I argue a lot and I'm the least favourite. I haven't done well at school, and I'm having to reconsider university. Because of all this, I feel like I have no future ahead of me. What's the point of carrying on if I have nothing to look forward to? I've felt so lost and had nothing to keep me going. I try and keep positive, but I just... I feel like I'm constantly alone and never good enough.

But then he cheered me up.
I don't know whether I'm just desperate and clinging to whoever gives me attention, but I'm kinda happy right now. I'm not making all the moves, or begging for attention. It's nice to be appreciated whether it's friendship or not.

Not many people realise that's all I need. I'll keep marching on.