I have been sharing a room with my family friend and my sister, and was half awake whilst they were talking. They were talking about pointless stuff, none of it very interesting and then my sister says "Steph is so annoying. She makes such a big deal out of everything and I can't stand her."
"before talking about people that are in the same room, you better make sure that they are actually asleep."
"i knew you were awake, I just don't really care."
Truth is, I've had enough of my family. We're always together, but I'm always ignored. I've always known I'm the least favourite in my family and that's something you get used to, something that is just fact and you just accept and move on. Like the fact that eventually one day, we will pass on. You know that fact is always there, but you just deal with it, no matter how much you hate the thought. But recently, I've noticed that I am becoming less and less noticed and I'm just fading out. Assumptions are being made and therefore decisions are also being made for me without even considering my opinion.
I just don't feel like my family loves me that much. I know they do, but they're not showing it that much anymore and I feel unimportant.
My sister and my friend left the bedroom and went into the living room, and I stayed in bed, reading. I eventually walked to the bathroom and my sister says, "Steph, we want to watch Doctor Who. Come watch it with us?"
I replied, "No, I can't be bothered with you." And walked off.
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